Honey and the Moon by dumbles

Rating: PG
Genres: Angst, Romance
Relationships: Lily & James
Book: Lily & James, Books 1 - 4
Published: 05/08/2004
Last Updated: 06/08/2004
Status: Completed

Semi song-fic inspired by 'Honey and the Moon' by Joseph Arthur. Lily writes and honest
letter to James- and he responds.




1. Honey and the Moon
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Honey and the Moon

Lily and James fluff fic inspired by ‘Honey and the Moon’ by Joseph Arthur. In 2 parts, with the
possibility of a companion based on the ending.

Don’t know why I’m still afraid

*If you weren’t real I would make you up now*

*Wish that I could follow through*

*And know that your love is true*

*And deep as the sea*

*But right now everything you want is wrong*

*And right now all your dreams are waking up*

*And right now I wish I could follow you*

To the shores of freedom
Where no one lives

The dying light of the fire was the only thing lighting the Gryffindor common room as Lily Evans
sat huddled in the corner, scribbling furiously on a roll of parchment that already went over the
edge of the table and sat in several curls underneath it. Her eyelids were heavy and she was
desperate for sleep, but she wanted to finish this first… if she didn’t finish it she never would
and it would haunt her forever.

Most people had assumed that the pretty sixth year Prefect was working hard on some essay and
had left her alone- disturbing Lily Evans from study was as safe as poking a sleeping dragon in the
eye.

But for the first time ever, she wasn’t studying. Instead she was pouring her energy into a
letter that could change her life forever.

Finally, her eye lids grew too weary to hold open any longer and she rolled the parchment back
up and sealed it, leaving it on the table and heading into bed.

~*~

From where he sat on the stairs to the boys dormitory, James watched Lily yawn and put her quill
down and roll the parchment up. He wondered if she knew that whenever she stayed up studying he
would wait in the stairwell, watching her, making sure she was alright.

He watched as she left the parchment on the table and headed past the boys stairs. And as he
watched her, he could’ve sworn she looked up the stairs and winked.

No- Lily Evans would never do that. Curiosity got the better of James and after he heard the
door up the girls staircase close, he headed down the stairs, back into the common room and picked
up the scroll of parchment.

His heart stopped beating when he saw that his own name was written in her delicate writing.
When it started to beat again, he sat down in the seat she had only just vacated and unrolled the
parchment.

*James,*

*I can’t believe I am writing this letter. I have been trying to work up the courage for so
many weeks now, but I just haven’t been able to. I think the reason I haven’t been able to is
because I am scared- scared of the possible ramifications this letter. Which probably makes you a
little scared reading that- oh I’m just rambling.*

*I guess I should start how I planned to start.*

*James Potter, you are the most infuriating person I have ever met. Period. I went to a muggle
school and I didn’t meet anyone who has the ability to piss me off as severely as you do sometimes.
Somehow, sometimes, just by walking into a room you annoy me so much that I have to leave.*

*You are possibly the meanest person I have ever encountered- the way you bully the
Slytherin’s is unbelievable- especially Severus Snape. Whilst I agree that he’s maybe not the
nicest person in the world, you don’t need to go around cursing him ‘just because he exists’. And
Sirius- well, he’s just as bad, but this isn’t about Sirius and me. It’s about you and me- about
us.*

*Yes, you read that correctly. About us.*

*James, you’ve never made your feelings for me secret- 98% of Hogwarts knows. Ever since our
first year you’ve trailed behind me, a love sick puppy dog. I know that as I’m writing this, you’re
watching me. And I know that if I am up later than everyone else, you will sit in the stairwell and
watch me until I go to bed. Oh yes, I know these things. I might not follow you around the school
and pretend that I just happen to be going the same way, but I do watch you James Potter.*

*Which is why I am writing this letter. James, through watching you for the last few months
I’ve gotten to know you separate to ‘James Potter, bullying git’. You’re not that person at all.
You’ve become someone else to me. You’re not half bad, Potter. You’re funny- you make me laugh,
just by watching you and Sirius sometimes. You’re, and I know you would never freely admit it,
you’re smart. I’ve seen your marks in Transfiguration over your shoulder- you did better than me,
Potter and I’m not really liking that so much.*

*Oh- what was I saying. Liselle just came over and completely interrupted me and now I’ve lost
my train of thought!*

*James, you’ve become quiet towards me this year. I was used to your loud ‘Evans, will you go
out with me?’ at completely random moments- though I admit I am still thoroughly embarrassed about
the very public display at the Quidditch match in fourth year. When we’d passed into November and
you hadn’t yet asked me out once, I grew worried and almost went to Madam Pomfrey to see if you
were perhaps on some sort of calming potion. And that was when I started to watch you. And here we
are now, in June, in the dying days of the year before we separate for two months for the
summer.*

*And that is why I am timing this letter for now. It gives us the summer apart to think things
over and come back in September, knowing what we want. Because, I’ve wanted to ask you this for a
while, James. Do you really want me? Or has chasing after me just become a habit and if you were
really with me you’d realise you’ve wasted all these years? And to be perfectly honest, I’m not too
sure what I want. From the moment we met you have stirred up giant emotions in me, emotions I
didn’t even know I could feel. And even now you’re doing it to me.*

*Maybe I am just rambling on and on about nothing. When I give you this letter, you’re
probably going to read it once and scrunch it up and throw it into the nearest bin. I needed to get
a lot of things off my chest and I could never ever say any of this direct to your face without
first knowing how you’d react. Yeah, I know, I’m just a giant scaredy cat.*

*I do have a point to this letter- and I’m getting to it, I promise. See, even though I’m
scared of saying this stuff to your face, I know that that scared feeling goes hand in hand with
everything else I’m feeling right about now. And I don’t know if what I am feeling is the right
thing to be feeling, or whether or not I am just dreaming of something so incredibly impossible
that when I wake up, I will feel so disheartened because the dream felt so real- you know those
dreams? Right now I want things that I have never wanted before- such as you. A point you’ve
probably picked up through my ramblings. I like you James Potter and it is terrifying me right down
to the core, because of everything I have listed above. You’ve turned into the person I love to
hate and hate to love.*

*And I didn’t mean to use ‘love’ there. Well, I did, but I didn’t mean it as ‘love’. I’m far
to young for ‘love’- I’m in way over my head there… ignore that, oh please ignore that…*

*And it’s getting late and this letter is long enough as it is- I didn’t mean for it to get so
long, but you just can’t shut me up sometimes. And most of it is pointless drabble, but, well,
you’re just going to have to read it, aren’t you?*

*I’m going to leave this here on this table for you. I know you’re watching me- believe me,
it’s taking a lot of restraint to stop myself from going up those stairs and shouting at you, just
for the sheer joy of yelling at you. You’re great for venting frustrations, did you know
that?*

*And if you want to talk, go and sit on the lounge in front of the fire. Don’t ask how I’ll
know you’re there- just trust me, alright?*

Lily

James rolled up the parchment and put it on the table in front of him and let the words she had
written wash over him. He was shaking. As he tried to make his mind focus, he thought he heard
something behind him. He pushed it aside, before his mind focused on the end of her letter. Smiling
wryly to himself, he stood up and headed over towards the girls staircase. He stood beside it and
face into the common room, the smile now a smirk.

‘Lily, I know you’re sitting there,’ he said and after a few moments, turned and looked up the
stairs. Lily was indeed standing there, in her nightgown, and she looked furious.

‘So- I can sit wherever I want,’ she said, folding her arms and glaring at him.

‘Not after that letter you can’t,’ James said evenly. ‘What- where did that come from?’

‘Didn’t you read it properly? It’s been building up for so long that if I didn’t write it down
soon I was going to explode,’ she said, taking a step up the staircase a bit further. ‘Now, I’m
going to bed. Please don’t mention that letter again. Not yet.’

She turned and ran up the stairs and James headed back over to the letter and quickly re-read it
and focused on one part.

And that is why I am timing this letter for now. It gives us the summer apart to think things
over and come back in September, knowing what we want.



2. After The Summer
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Part II- thanks to all who reviewed. Especially to the following person. I know I could just
reply through the review screen, however I thought I would make your wonderful review known to all.
I’m not doing this to be a bitch- I just have something to say.

*This is what you wrote:* kind of. . . how should I put it. . . stupid.

Thank you for your wonderfully constructive comments. I love being told my writings stupid.
Please, if you think this is pure crap, and you want to tell me, at least give me a reason. How can
I make future stories less stupid without knowing why they’re stupid to begin with. And besides, I
know this story is kinda stupid. It’s fluff, pure and simple, written in about 5 minutes flat. I
know that compared to a lot of writers here on Portkey my stories are kinda stupid and pointless-
however I enjoy writing them and it is feedback like that, completely unconstructive, that make me
want to curl up under my doona and never come out again. As I said, if you think this is pure crap,
don’t beat around the bush, just tell me straight out why you think it’s crap. I can handle that. I
can’t handle getting told my stories are stupid for no real apparent reason. Had you put down a
your name and e-mail I would’ve perhaps contacted you privately to find out why you thought my
story was so stupid- instead you forced me to take a very public route and possibly make hundreds
of people out there not like me.

And now that I’ve said that, I can give you the final chapter. Many thanks to Quidditchfan1220
and pottersgirl363 for their nice feedback.

After The Summer

Walking through the smoke billowed out by the Hogwarts Express, James felt a surge of pride as
the younger students jumped aside, noting the shiny silver Head Boy badge on his chest. Behind him,
he could hear Sirius, Remus and Peter laughing their heads off at him, but James didn’t care. He
was heading for the front carriage and would hopefully be first. He knew he had official Head Boy
duties first, but after that the entire trip was his.

And he knew exactly how he planned to spend it.

~*~

Pushing her way through the barrier from the muggle world to the magical world, Lily felt
relieved as she saw the shiny red Hogwarts Express. Her dratted sister and brother in law had
bought her to Kings Cross, but had not helped her get her trunk out of the car, instead had just
pulled up outside the station, leaving Lily alone to pull the heavy trunk out of the car and drag
it through the station. She knew it was because Vernon was a muggle and had no idea of what train
Lily was actually catching, but was annoyed all the same and was wishing her parents hadn’t had to
work so they could’ve bought her to the station and seen her off on the train for her final
year.

Pushing her way through the crowd of gathered parents, she made her way up to the front of the
train, where she lugged her trunk aboard and stowed it with the rest of the prefects luggage, as
she had done for the past three years. She headed down the carriage slightly and smirked when she
reached the main component.

The Head Boy and Girl traditionally didn’t know who the other was until they arrived on the
Hogwarts Express. However, non-Prefect James Potter being made Head Boy had become big news and had
spread throughout the seventh years rather quickly.

‘Hi,’ Lily said, smiling nervously as she stepped inside. James smiled back and before he could
get a word out, the rest of the Prefects joined them and they got the official business under way-
there would be more time. They had, after all, the entire trip to Hogwarts.

~*~

The Prefects left the compartment in a flurry of noise and activity and Lily looked out the
window and sighed inaudibly. The meeting had gone well- she found it incredibly odd to have so much
power, yet they had listened to her every word. James had been silent- but Lily knew he had no idea
how the meetings on the train worked. She had done some reading and he was the first non-Prefect
Head Boy in over 100 years.

‘So,’ he said cautiously, closing the compartment door. ‘It’s after the summer.’

Lily smiled to herself. She hadn’t been able to take her mind off him all summer- she couldn’t
believe herself, but it happened and now she was alone with him- like she had wanted to be all
summer.

Without saying a word she stood up and headed over to him and kissed him hard- like she had
wanted to all summer. He kissed her back just as hard and both lost track of how long they stood in
the compartment- when they finally did break apart, James looked dreamily at Lily and smiled.

‘Let’s- let’s just take it slow, alright?’ She said, her heart beating hundreds of times faster
than it should.

‘Slow it shall be,’ he said, still smiling, his arms wrapped around her. He slowly untangled
himself from her and reached into the pocket of his robes and pulled out a small roll of parchment.
‘And now it’s your turn to read.’

~*~

*Dear Lily,*

*If you’re reading this letter, then, well, everything went alright when we saw each other
again. I’ve got a letter for just in case it doesn’t- but by the time you finish reading this one
and come to me, I shall have destroyed it.*

*Your letter- I think I’ve read it every day so far this summer. It blew my head off and
continues to do so. I had no idea you had been watching me. I had no idea of anything you
said.*

*Which makes me a right arse. I treated you horribly and I know that now- and I will continue
to feel bad about it for the rest of my life and I want to spend the rest of my life making it up
to you.*

*Yes- the rest of my life. You asked in your letter whether, if I had you, if I’d still want
you or whether I just want the dream of being with Lily Evans. Well, it wasn’t worded like that,
but it was something to that effect. I would not have spent six years of my life chasing after you
if I didn’t want you, Lily. You might be a little scared to use the word, but I’m not. I love you.
I’ve dreamt of you for so long and hopefully now I have you. And I want you to know that I will
follow you and love you for the rest of my life.*

James

~*~

She found them at the end of the train, in one of the very last compartments. They were all
laughing and she went to knock, but at the last minute decided not to. She opened the door and
walked in, feeling eight eyes on her. She stood in front of James and without saying a word, sat
down on his lap and kissed him like she had kissed him before.

The compartment became filled with cheers and cat calls from the others and Lily and James broke
apart, grinning and blushing like mad.

‘Guys, let me introduce you to Lily. My girlfriend and honourable marauder.’



